I'm IN!

Well. MEPS was eventful... but it got done and I passed everything and got sworn in and all that. It's official!! I'm a Future Soldier! :D

Right now I've got until February to get all in shape and ready to go! Hubby it OK with it, family is gonna find out sometime this coming week. Wish me luck! lol

Out for now. Watching a movie with my man!

Rain SUCKS

So, I've done zero running for like 2 weeks now 'cause it's been raining and miserably cold. I have been doing pushups and situps every day for the last 4 days though. Started at 10push-ups and like 39 situps and I've made it to... er... 11 pushups and 50situps inside of 2 minutes!! I should actually go do some today... Perhaps I'll get hubby to time me :D

And... it's cold right now... Soooo I'm gonna go eat some food!

And yes, I know this was a horribly short, probably slightly annoying post... however, I promise I shall have something slightly better later... I'll definitely update you all Wednesday/Thursday after my test/physical!

Scheduled!

You know that weird, excited/terrified feeling you get sometimes when you're doing something you REALLY want to do but it still scares you? That "I wanna puke on your shoes" kinda feeling?

I've got that. Well not anymore... But I did yesterday... and I will on Wednesday and Thursday... Yesterday I went into the recruiters office, reserved a job (31E - Military Internment Specialist), and scheduled my trip up to MEPS. (EEEKKKKK!!!!!)

Totally gonna try to switch it to 31B (Military Police) when I get there but I'm not sure if it's possible... kinda gonna depend on whether or not the other job is available and what I get on the ASVAB. Hopefully I get a REALLY good score!! I'm not really worried about the rest of everything, I shouldn't have any disqualifying medical conditions... so we should be good!

Well, I'm gonna go do something productive.

Running. It's a Love-Hate thing.

So, my topic today is running... I hate running. I also love running.

So, in order for this whole Army thing to work I have to actually be in shape. Or at least I imagine it to be a good idea. I'm SURE there are people who head off to BCT in as good a shape (or worse) than I am right now, I'm just not sure it's a good idea. Seeing as I'd like to SURVIVE basic and EXCEL at it (jeez, I'd actually like to get to PICK my job once I'm through OCS, not just be handed the dredges!). So the hubby and I (bless his heart) have gone running a few times lately. OK, twice. Once last Friday...ish... and once last Tuesday... Yes, I realize that that's like twice in 10days, not the greatest for getting in shape, but we're busy people and I'm lazy. I am absolutely going to force myself to run Tuesday AND Thursday though of this coming week, whether or not he comes with me, because I WILL get in shape. I just have to figure out a way to not inhale icy air... It's killing me slowly, it's hard enough for me to breathe while running let alone when the coldness of the air is shutting down my lungs (yes, I'm a drama queen, deal with it or go away).

Anywho... the FIRST time we went he decided we were going on what he guestimated to be a 2mile run, when we got back and I mapped it (with this website), we found out that it's more like a 1.88 mile run. Anyways, we made it in about 17 minutes, so we kept up a speed of about 9:06/mile. NOT BAD! I mean, I thought I was DYING when I got back, but I did live, and I actually went out again with him the next week, so obviously it didn't scar me to badly. I was sore for about 3 days though, found muscles that I didn't even know I had and that I CERTAINLY haven't used in a while. We decided that for it being the first time he'd run in a year and the first time I've run since... er... Oh, I don't know... like 6years? We decided we did pretty well.

Tuesday when we went out we only went a mile... well, he "guestimated" that it was a mile... more like 1.1 but I won't hold it against him. He decided we were going for speed, uh? hello? I thought I was gonna die LAST time and that was at a slow pace!! I kept up with him for about 100feet and then decided I was going to run at my own nice, slow, pace. I managed to survive the 1.1 miles and I did so with a GLORIOUS 9minute 13second time. Which, for those interested, is about 8:20/mile. Basically, if I could keep that up for 2 miles (which there's NO WAY I would've been able to), I'd get an 89 on the running portion of the PT test. YAY ME!!! Honestly, even at my 17min two mile I would've gotten an 86 (and I only need a 60 to pass!).

So there you go. Running, my love-hate affair. I HATE the end results of running (the fatigue and feeling like I'm gonna die parts), but I LOVE actually running and seeing ANY improvement in my time (yes, I realize there isn't really any improvement yet as I just started) and I'm gonna LOVE getting my 100+ on my PT test! :D

Now, I must go and wake the husband, got places to go and people to see! Talk to ya'll later!

October. It is here!

So I realized the other day that it is October. This was noticed primarily because my manager put his spider earring in... yes, it's a spider, it's a cool blend of creepy and intensely cool lol. Of course it was also noted by the fact that it's freaking COLD OUTSIDE and I had to flip a page on my calendar.

Right now we've gotten rid of most of the kittens. I'm still waiting on two people to get back to me, I relist those two tomorrow. I can't and won't deal with keeping them. People are ridiculous, I've had half a dozen people ask me whether or not I'll bring them the kitten, NO! I'm not gonna BRING YOU your FREE kitten! Some people...

Also, Monday... I managed to shut my finger in the car door. I have no idea what I did to it but it hurts like a mf-er!! I still can't really use the tip of the finger and, of course, it's my right pointer finger. YAY ME!

In other news... I've got half a dozen letters of recommendation in hand, and a few more that are supposed to be coming. Which reminds me... I need to remind a few peoples... I'm probably gonna email my recruiter in a couple days and try to figure out when things are gonna start moving again... seems like it's all just stuck!

Well, I'm gonna go and work on reminding a few people and getting some info to one guy who wanted some so he could write a better letter...

I shall be back to write more in a few days! I'd say tomorrow but I'd probably fail!

Looking Up!

This morning we had MORE work done on the furnace. It's almost done!! YAY!

I also posted an ad on Craigslist to try to get rid of the kittens and it WORKED *shock* *awe*. I got like 5 hits while I was at work! :D One person came and picked up her kitten today already, one is picking up her two on October 1st and I'm taking one to her new home tomorrow morning! That'll put us down to only Ninja, Zorro, Jedi, Yoda, Foofy and Skittles (aka Skitso). Yes, I am aware that that is still a lot but it's HALF as many as we've been currently living with. Zorro is already neutered and I'm going to call and make appointments for Jedi and Yoda tomorrow. I don't THINK that any of the boys have gotten their momma knocked up yet *fingers crossed* but I'll be sending in her ESNIP application early November (I want to give her a full 6 months to recover from her last litter).

We also (seem) to have gotten a handle on the fleas. We've been vacuuming pretty much every day and I've treated every room in the house except for the cat room (I KNOW I KNOW! that probably should have been the FIRST room to be treated but the living room and the couch were more important to me!). We've also only treated about half of the bedroom... still need to move the bed and the dressers out away from where they are ad treat the rest of the room.

I've completed my essay, I'm not editing it anymore! I'm planning on doing the handwritten copy tomorrow, I'm going to write it out once and if it's good, it's good. I'm hoping that it'll only take one try but I'm so OCD about it that I'll probably be writing it about 3 times hehehehehe. I got a letter from one of my peoples but there were a couple of typos so he's gonna fix it and resend it to me tomorrow. Hopefully I'll get it by Friday, also hoping that I'll get a couple from some other people who said they'd get them to me but haven't yet. Perhaps I'll also resend my email to a few people who never responded.

Just wanted to update things! So far things seem to be going smoothly and Tim and I are starting to feel MUCH better! Seem to be conquering our cold!

I Hate Being SICK!

Soo, hubby has been getting sick since Sunday, came home early yesterday and called off sick today :( He slept all day today though so hopefully he'll feel better soon.

We're getting the furnace put in today... well, more work on it... i don't know if it's gonna be ready or not today... I kind of doubt it but we'll see.

There's a person in Corry who wants 2 kittens but apparently doesn't "have the gas money" to get here... *sigh* I told her we'd hold the kittens until she comes to Erie on the 1st. I'm so sick of these freaking kittens.

I've had 4 people tell me that they'll get me letters of recommendation but I don't actually HAVE any yet... One should be coming on Saturday, and I hope the rest get here by Monday... I'd really like to take a few of them into the recruiters office sometime next week.

In other news, I am also coming down with something I think... I've had a sore throat for all of yesterday and today... It's kinda going away though now, I'm hoping that I'm not still sick tomorrow 'cause I have to work.

I'm excited to have a new furnace though! It's been getting really cold at night lately.

Things are definitely moving forward on all fronts!

A couple weeks ago I got my 10cent raise (passed my 90day review at PetSmart) but my hours got cut a couple times... did manage to pick up hours from other people though.

Sunday I sent one kitten home with his new owners and a coworker picked out a kitten that she wants.

Yesterday someone texted me and they want TWO kittens, they're gonna pick them up either today or tomorrow.

One cat out of 6 has been neutered and I'm setting up the appointment for 2 more (almost half way there!).

And today I got my eye exam done so that I have a current prescription for my recruiter! :D
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Still to get done...
get rid of 2 kittens, type and write an essay for my OCS packet, get a bunch of people to write me letters of recommendation, and wait til my recruiter gets everything typed into his computer and calls me! I'm starting to get excited... Tim is starting to get worried... he's still hoping that there is something wrong with me that they find out at MEPS so that I can't go... I'm gonna be bummed if that happens but at least I'll know I tried.

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The in-laws are coming up this weekend also... so that'll be interesting... they're bringing DH's older brother and his other brother's son. YAY! (I loves my nephew!!).

and so far only a select couple people know that I'm working on enlisting... so I think I'm good... I'm terrified of having that conversation with my parents... I know HIS parents will be OK with it and all our friends will be OK with it... just worried about my parents, they've never been supportive of my ideas of joining the military... Oh well. I'll deal with that when I get to it I guess!

I love my Hubby!!

So yesterday at work, I picked up hours for today... like 1-9 so ALL night long (and the entire time that he'd be home). I really NEED the hours which is why I took them, but we had other things tentatively planned so I was kinda bummed... and then he bought the most beautifullest card and put it under my windshield wiper for me for when I got out of work! :D

Fair Results...

The fair was FUN! and then I ended up having to ride the horse home on Sunday because my friend was having a problem with her trailer, then they went out at like 11pm on Saturday to pick up the horses and I didn't want to be out that late... It worked, took me just under 2 hours to get him home (and we made it before it rained!).

Friday we got 4th in Cutback (it's a confusingly patterned game...), 5th in Trail and 5th in poles. Not too bad considering that the judge hated my guts... she seriously like reprimanded me in front of the entire group because my phone accidently went off and I got seen turning it off. Like, seriously? It's the FUNSHOW!! and where did she want me to leave it? There was no-one else with me! Was I just supposed to throw it on the ground and hope nobody ran it over or stole it?

Anyways... I picked up Stevie yesterday! He's really, really cute and super tiny. He's not even as long as my thunb (his body WITH his tail). He's really cool though, he kinda just chills in his little container, gonna have to get him some sort of a heat lamp though because the house is cooling off a little too much for him at night I think.

Today I'm going to drop off Zorro to get neutered... the first of several cats that I need to take in! Thankfully there's a program here where I can get them done for virtually nothing. I'm not sure yet if they're gonna charge me for flea meds (probably since they ALL have fleas) but I can't really do anything about that, I've been TRYING to get rid of the fleas... Oh well, I don't really care, this is gonna save me like $50 a cat to get them done. 50 bucks which we don't have to spend on cat neutering right now!

Hopefully everything goes smoothly with that though, not really worried except that I'm pretty sure he shoved the door into the cat food open and ate a little bit, which he wasn't supposed to do, BAD KITTEH!! lol

Fairgrounds and Geckos...

So Tim and I have talked about it and we've decided that we're gonna get an Eyelash Crested Gecko! I can't wait! He's really cool. Hopefully gonna pick him up this weekend, I've got everything ready for him except for food... Still debating whether I'm gonna feed him mostly fruit and Eyelash Gecko food (yes, they make such a thing!) or whether I'm gonna feed mostly crickets. I'm thinking I'm probably going to feed crickets like MWF and gecko food the rest of the week. We'll see.

While I was at the fair yesterday I got 5th place in Keyhole and Poles... utterly failed at the Break and Out and got 6th (beat out by like a tenth of a second) for Barrels. Hoping for a little better on Friday but not unhappy with how my old man horse did.

I shall be back with another quick update later this week! Thanks for reading!

Updates are good

So I decided to start a little bit of a workout plan this fall... for no particular reason... :D Anyways... I found a couple of cool sites that inspire me with hope. 100pushups.com and 200situps.com they both claim they can take anyone and get them to 100pushups or 200situps (depending on the site obviously) within 6 weeks. We shall see. I did the initial test for both of them today and.. uh... well, I squeeked out 5 pushups before I died and 16 situps. I probably could've gotten one more pushup but that would have put me into a harder workout schedule and I want to actually succeed. I'd rather take an extra week to reach my goal instead of giving up 'cause it's too hard or risk hurting myself. I want to start running too but I'm gonna wait until after the fair (so I'll start next week) because there's no way I'll keep up with a running plan while I'm going back and forth to the fair. The pushups and situps I can do while watching TV in the evening or right before bed or after I get up.

I've had a lot of things change since the last time I posted... Tim and I have a house now! YAY! We're just renting from my parents but it's a nice little house, only 5 minutes from work! Also, I'm working at PetSmart and he's working at both Dicks Sporting Goods and Advanced Auto.

Well, I should go! Gotta get go shopping for spurs before the horse show tomorrow and I need to pick up my paycheck!

TTYL!

Figuring it out....

Sooo you know that Tim's coming home... he's actually home... got to his place Saturday evening... I still haven't seen him though, he's coming down to my place Thursday! YAY! I can't wait to see him, it honestly feels like it's been years!

I had an agility trial over the weekend... first one of the season... We did pretty well, the Twig-dog ran fast and was motivated the whole weekend so I was pleased even though we didn't Q. Friday we tried Time-2-Beat (T2B) and he got a little spastic half-way through and then I forgot where I was... it was just a bad story. Then Saturday we had Standard and Jumpers With Weaves... Both of those runs he missed ONE jump :( again, it was ok because he was running with speed and actually enjoying himself. I'm just hoping that next trial we can run with speed AND accuracy!! I'm sure it'll come... just gonna take a little time...

This weekend I'm headed up to Tim's family's house for the weekend... I have to drop off a kitten for his sister (they're having a welcome home party for a cat....) and Saturday I have my bridal shower up there... and Saturday evening we have a Halloween party at his sister's place (I've actually NEVER done ANYTHING for Halloween...). So it's gonna be a pretty hectic weekend!!

well... I need to get to lab... be back later!

Bah Humbug!

Blah...

That one little word depicts much of my day today... actually... much of my life at present...

Let me explain... or... try to explain....

Timothy is probably coming home early... (yeah, he's only in Kansas, but since HOME for me is PA then he's coming "home"). And it ain't for a good reason... like, seriously... he's apparently done with the Army... paperwork is being filed as we speak... briefs are being done... like... it's for real, he's coming home for good. And I don't know how I feel about it. Honestly I should probably be thrilled... but I'm not (anyone care to explain that!? lol). I mean, I'm happy he's coming home, I'm happy I'm gonna get to see him, I'm happy he won't be deployed.... but I'm not happy that he's quitting. I keep telling myself it'll be ok... and I keep telling myself that this is gonna be better for both of us... but for some reason I don't believe it. Jeez, my brain doesn't even believe that he's actually coming home yet! Seriously. And he should be home in like a week and a half... And my brain won't process it... I was talking to my agility instructor the other day and she was like, well, probably it's because you've had so much emotional upheaval about him almost coming home once before and then being restarted... which is probably true. Tim and I have both said that this just feels like a dream, like nothing's real, which is weird... 'cause usually we're both more... sensible... than that... He's said that everything has felt like a dream since he saw me at the Turning Blue ceremony... He's said that he can't focus on his job, he WON'T focus. He hates it... I don't know why. I don't get it. I don't understand. How can he just hate something he's only been a part of for 10 months? I feel like he's shutting me out of some parts of his brain, I know there's another side of him emerging and, to be honest, it kind of scares me. I know that Timothy is still there... it's just that every now and then I get the feeling I'm not talking to "Timothy" I'm talking to someone else... it's like his alter ego... I don't know. It's the military him... the part of him that takes orders, gets angry, wants to throw things around, wants to kill the world. I don't know what to do with that part of him. I can control it but I don't want to. I don't want to HAVE to control it. I hope it goes away eventually. I don't think it will ever completely go away though. I'm working on planning our formal wedding ceremony and he gets upset because he can't be there to help. It's OK! I don't mind doing it. It's not that big a deal!! If I have something I need his opinion on I text him, mostly it's my parents planning stuff anyways, not like either one of us can control what they're doing. And Heaven-forbid I should say anything about him "quitting" or "losing" or "failing" 'cause he'll go off the deep-end... it's like suddenly there are these unseen rules about what I can and can't say around him and I'm still trying to figure out what they all are. I've figured most of them out in the past couple weeks but every now and then something has happened during his day and our whole conversation that night is sour and sullen. When I ask what's wrong he either won't answer or I get his canned response "I just hate it here" "I miss you" "I just wanna go home". If I ask why all I get is "you know why". And I try to understand, I really do. But I don't get it. I don't think I ever will. I don't regret marrying him. Honestly, I think that's one of the only things that has kept him sane, the fact that he has someone else that he has to pay a little bit of attention to and that's always gonna be there for him. I dont know... it's times like these that I remember why I started blogging however many months ago... Times when I just need to vent and have a blank screen to fill with thoughts... thoughts that many times never get proofread and never get reworded before I hit "publish". I just send them in, let the world look at them... at my private thoughts... but it makes me feel better. I can get it out there and let someone else worry about it. And I can keep telling myself I'm fine. Yeah... fine... Freaked out, Insecure, Neurotic, Emotional. That's how fine I am... except its usually just teh Emotional part lately... which I don't understand at all... I'm like, the least emotional person I know... and there are some days I just wanna cry... When did that happen? I think that the only thing that's kept ME sane the past few weeks is school... I just keep trying to bog myself down, deeper and deeper. Tuesday mornings I get lab reports back and Tuesday I get the damn things done.... Like, totally done... I get assignments and they're done about two days later. Focusing is a problem but once I get the focus I can accomplish anything. It keeps me busy. The birds keep me busy, the mice keep me busy. I've got a couple games that keep me busy. Our internet still sucks so I try to avoid it as much as possible... it just acts as a catalyst to make me upset...

Peyton left on Monday. His parents took him to MEPS on Monday evening and he flew out to start basic training Tuesday afternoon... I've already written him two pages of letters... He's gonna be almost as swamped with reading material as Tim was! But it keeps me focused and upbeat. I know he needs to hear happy things, things that are going on, what's the weather like, how school's going... and it makes me focus on the good things that have happened in the past 24 hours. It helps. I can't wait until he sends and address so I can actually mail the letters and look for pictures online and stuff. I really hope that they have a facebook page for his group... which reminds me that I deactivated my facebook account like 2 weeks ago... dang... I might have to reactivate it if he's got a facebook page... Oh well... We'll think about that when it comes around....

Facebook was too much drama... too much information... I don't want to know what you drank last weekend, how drunk you got, who you slept with or who you're mad at. I've got my own problems and you had better believe that I don't post them all over the internet... well... OK, I guess I am posting them all over... but seriously? how many people read this blog? not as many as see my facebook profile... and at least here people can't make stupid comments... and here, it's like I'm posting my problems to get them off my chest, not to get answers and crap from people. I see blogging as a way to relieve tension without using paper... Writing helps. But I can't write... my wrist hurts too much when I try to actually WRITE on paper... dang wrist. I don't know what the freak I ever did to it to make it so angry but the past year the mf-er's been killing me. I can't even write a decent essay without stopping like 15 times to make it stop hurting.

Speaking of essays... I need to start studying for the GREs again... and yes, that is related to essays 'cause they have an essay portion on the GREs... and yes, I'm taking them again 'cause my first scores suck. Hopefully this time around they are better. I'd like to have scores that are competitive enough to actually get me into a graduate program that I like!

DAMN I forgot I had lab teardown today... at 3... and it's 4 now... fml... Although class did run late... whatever... Guess I'll hop into lab tomorrow and teardown my crap when I drop my lab reports off for my people.... I wonder if that last kid actually did the lab... he never showed up Tuesday morning and then Wednesday afternoon he talked to the prof and wanted to know when he could make up the lab and she told him the other times were on his syllabus and it was his responsibility to find a time that worked... so I don't know if he ever did... I guess I could email Mrs. R. and see... she should know by now... I'm pretty sure that her labs were the only ones that he could've gotten into... I don't know though, there's one other person who teaches a section of lab and I'm not sure which day/time her lab is at.

Well... I guess I should stop rambling... there's probably some unseen law that says that I can only make blogs of a certain length... and besides.. who is seriously gonna keep reading... if they've read for this long... and in case you were wondering, there ain't no way I'm proofreading this... it's entirely too long...

Until next time...